There is so much crap going on in my life right now. I'm really glad that there are a few more months until the next convention. It gives me some time to relax and hopefully cool off.


Family:


My family is the biggest issue I have. My older sister is having some issues with my parents and it's a very pressing matter. The whole agruement is over my sister's boyfriend. My dad basically threatened (for a while) to disown her. I'm the youngest and imagine hearing that about your sister! It scared the ships outta me and it still does. I'm not sure if she is coming home for Thanksgiving and if she is, it's going to be really awkward around my parents and her. And, to make matters worse, I can't go visit her because my parents don't want me to go. Even though I'm 18, I still respect my parents, even if they are being really stupid.


I can kinda understand why my parents are having issues, but I'm not gunna go into detail about that because it doesn't matter to me any more.


College:


Another thing that is stressing me out is college. I'm having a really hard time writing my research paper for Communications I, even though it's a subject I'm really strong on. The military policy of Don't Ask, Don't Tell. I think the concept of DADT is a great idea. It's basically if your gay, you can't say that you are and no one can ask if you are. I like that idea because it isn't anyones business to know. But (since there is always a but) what happens to a person who is found to be gay is just wrong. They are discharged from the military with none of the benefits that a heterosexual could get.

Also involved in that stress is my Psychology class. I didn't do one of the papers because I completely forgot it was due and I recieved a letter saying my teacher was worried about me and to talk to him about what I should do. I already know what I need to do, so I didn't talk to him. Then we did the second exam out of four and I got a 57% on it, which is really bad. Now on the next few things we do, I have to do really well to make at least a B for my final grade. I have to do a research paper for this class too, which is really bad.


I have three weeks to do everything. Well, two weeks now, cause the final week is exams and such.


German class is a hard class too, only because I have to go to the language lab for 16 hours and I've only gone for 1 hour and 45 minutes... And... I SUCK AT MAKING SENTENCES. I'm good at remembering words, but I can't put a sentence together for my life! And part of my exam is to be able to speak the language!!


I think the only class I'm not worried about is my stupid remedial math class (a waste of a year, I swear!!). I'm basically doing easy simple Algebra I stuff. Remeber FOIL anyone?


Cosplay:


Another thing that's stressing me out is FHP. I know! It's so weird to have a group stress you out, but it is. The major thing that is stressing me out is one of our members is being a little difficult to work with. And another of our members (our out-of-country one) dropped the group for a reason regarding that other member... I'm just overly stressed about that. And to add my family problems on top of this one is making me not want to cosplay any more... Even though I love it so much.


Done.


I'm just hoping everything gets better soon because I need some peace of mind.


The only thing that was my highlite is the fact that FHP got a new member named Ritsuka. Other than that, my life is pretty much crap...

Over and out,
~ Ace (of Hearts)


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